Around this time last year I did not like my job. Disagreements with a few attorneys lead to serious questions about my abilities, my dedication and even my continued employment with the firm. In the eyes of a few influential people I had dropped the ball during the show stopper - during a time when my team was preparing for trial. Trial's the time when a young paralegal just starting out can really make a name for herself. I did, just not in the good way.
Within the span of two days, 80 percent of the work that I had done since my employment date meant nothing. I found myself at ground zero and realizing that any reputation I had built as a smart, hard-working paralegal had been erased. It would take time to regain confidence in me.
Fast forward a year later and I find myself in a similar situation. I'm with a different set of attorneys but we are preparing for trial. I'm working hard. I'm putting in hours. (I even worked on Easter.) I'm doing everything in my power to make sure that when this trial is over (if it happens) I will have proved something. I will prove that I am smart. I am dedicated. And it was one hell of a good idea to keep me around.
This is all to say that blog posting will be light until this trial is over. I'll try to write but my personal life has been sorely lacking over the past week. I am falling into the trap of eating out, not working out and sleeping poorly. Not much I can do now, except grin and bear it. I just hope you can bear with(out) me.